Wow, how time gets away from you sometimes. It has been 8 weeks since “Quinn”. My days have completely switched gears. I went from being totally consumed by pregnancy to being totally consumed by the loss of the pregnancy to hardly thinking about the pregnancy. That’s what happens when you are in nursing school. I finally started back. I have been out of school since the end of June last year just waiting for a class I needed to come back around. The school doesn’t offer the class year round. The ironic thing about it is the class I am taking is OB. I couldn’t wait for the class to start when I found out I was pregnant. I thought it was going to be great fun to be in that class WHILE I was pregnant (talk about an easy A). Then when I lost the baby just a month before the class started I was completely bummed. I didn’t want to go….I was dreading it. Well, I am doing OK with being around all those Mom’s and babies during clinicals and I got to see the most awesome thing ever………I got to see a birth. It is TOTALLY different seeing the whole thing from the other perspective. I mean NOT from the bed. If you ever get the opportunity to see a live birth, not one on TV, but to actually be there than seize that opportunity. It truly is the most awesome thing you will ever see in your life.
23
Mar
08
Hi,
I like the way you write ..Its really different and interesting … keep the momentum going ..I hope tis will really going to help me in future..How is one to live a moral and compassionate existence when one is fully aware of the blood, the horror inherent in life, when one finds darkness not only in one’s culture but within oneself? If there is a stage at which an individual life becomes truly adult, it must be when one grasps the irony in its unfolding and accepts responsibility for a life lived in the midst of such paradox. One must live in the middle of contradiction, because if all contradiction were eliminated at once life would collapse. There are simply no answers to some of the great pressing questions. You continue to live them out, making your life a worthy expression of leaning into the light
brilliant. .